just when you think you start to start again.

it was getting there, but nope you have to go and insult a load of people. idiot.

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its not cool you disgusting peice of shit. go away.

i miss the adrenaline already.

i want to go cross country again!!

go away!

please leave me alone. just go away, enough is enough and it was fun whilst it lasted. sorry its probably my fault, but its my perogative.

stop hasseling me, just shoo. i can't do everything at once, its to much. i need time to chill out. and have you ever thought your a bit to much some times? take a deep breathe and think calm, you give me a headache.

and as for stirring shit, just don't. behave yourself.. this is why you have hardly any friends!

exciiiiiiiited!

going to london going to london going to london !!!
can't wait. i'm going to be so poor. why is it like an unwritten rule of being off of school that you must be broke? no fair. but............ going to londdddddddon! soo excited. shopping and wicked! yay :)

parties?

in short, more please.

haha

there is no hope.
i hate alcohol.

irritating!

why awnser a question with a question?

haha. pricks

well i proved you wrong fuckers ;) don't you love it when people have low expectations of you and you take them by suprise.. no i am not a failure so fuck you.

and also.. don't you find it funny when people still think you're friends even though you haven't spoken them in like a year and don't want anything to do with them? also its quite funny when they try and get you're attention via facebook, no i don't care anymore, didn't really when we were 'friends' and what you're saying is bullshit.. we both know you're crap.

i'm so amused right now! :) ahh, life.

..

as levels are finally under control, and my hangover/exhaustion is raging!
..and dorian grey is one great film.

brilliant.

Fucking fantastic. best day in ages. and all set for the weekend :)
t.v is good, people are better, as levels are under control and meagan is happpppppppppppy. plus insomnia almost gone! yay.. happy happy happy.. :)

just look at the mess you've made.

my god i've fucked up recently. i've given myself far to much to do. its no way possible anymore i get like an hour a day or so when i can relax and it isn't enough. also i'm so bored all the time, even though i seem to always be doing something its rarley something i enjoy. plus i seem to be seeing different sides to people that i don't like at all, my life is basically a huge fuck up.

however,

sixth form party
driving
hayley's birthday
boys like girls
you me at six and we the kings
my birthday

so things are looking up (oh finally)? ..paramore quoting. bad. thats enough now! (could mean girls quote and add kevin here but think i'll resist. one cheese ball quote is enough per blog)

ciao, im'a go be a loser somewhere else now.

fail. fail. fail.

some people actually just fail. fucking wankers. what makes some people so sure they are above everyone else? you know what maybe people are not quite as clever as they think they are? how about that? how can people be so fucking stuck up and full of themselves then accuse others of the same thing. twats. twats. twats. people should look at themselves before they start ripping other people to shreds.

and oh my god. what is with people acting like they have friggin multiple personality. how can you switch it on and off? people need to fuck off. i do not care that people think they can do something best. know what? its only you that has such a high opinion of yourself! even those clostest are sick of you people, so stop. fucking hate people. stupid tossers.

and while i'm at it. school. shit. complete and utter shit. missing one or two homeworks and failing a mock is not the end of the world. fucking hell, when you are me things start to fall through the cracks and guess what moaning and chasing me is not helpful, so please fuck off. i can sort myself out without your 'help'.

I miss the snow:(

okaaaay.. so i spent the whole time we had snow moaning about it but i kinda want it back now!

snow is fun, even if it is annoying. and its pretty, normal days really are not. this right now is the most boring kind of weather. please snow or rain or shine or something!

fucking, fucked up fuckers need to fuck off.

what the fuck is the point in taking a subject when the teachers couldn't give a shit and are only interested in the people that they think will get a's and b's? do not fucking tell me my work is wrong without reading it because i didn't write a bloody adress on it! twats. and why ignore a certain group of people? yes we don't get a's so what our views don't count now. stupid fucking nazi cunts. fucking unbelievable wankers. and these are the teachers who moan about me underachieving. well, maybe if you bothered to explain things once in a while or pay me some attention i wouldn't! stupid bitches need to be fucking ughhhhhh'd.

scared of seventeen

okay so i'm seventeen soon and i only just got a little scared that im growing up.

so,
-people are talking uni
-my dad keeps wanting me to go look at cars.. i want to drive but i really would like to live to atleast thirty-five
-i will have to follow through(don't laugh you silly children) on my promise to myself that i will actually get my tatoo done, i have a very low pain threshhold!

short list, really does scare me though!

exams.

how is it that exams manage to stress me out even when i don't do any prep? ughh, i hate them! these mocks are silly, why is it that we have to do them at the same time as the real one's? on the upside i have learnt to revise, atleast my version of it. glad psychology exam is over though as it actually makes me want to shoot myself in the face. right well... im done.

take off your colours, who are you wearing them for?

why is it that we all care so much what people think of us nowdays? i mean i never used to but recently i've realised i do more than ever before. its strange, i mean what difference does someone else's opinion actually make? from now on i'm going to make a concious effort to care less.

also i'm going let free on the bitching. to hell with keeping it to myself i just get more and more wound up, so ..haha this year is going to be fun, im feeling mean! no holding back.

change

today i realised something about change. i guess everyone change's, however you probably don't notice as you change. some people just cant win. if people change in ways others don't like they get slated for it, for instance not acting as they did five years ago. but on the other hand almost everyday i see someone get told to 'grow up'. well hang one everyone. you can't have it both ways, do you want everyone to be immature or for everyone to grow up? yes healthy inbetween, i get that. but healthy inbetween is different for everyone isnt it?

its funny really how everyone looks at eachother and how everyone has a different take on everything. for instance there are people i think should grow up, but then there are probably people that think differently of the same people. what is it with our society? its all so conflicting. i blame the media. you get all the bad press about going out having fun, these people should 'grow up' and 'sort themselves out' well who says that there is anything to sort out? who gets to dictate that? and then there's those boring tv people who need to 'loosen up' well whats wrong with them being up tight? if thats the way they want to be!? well if the crazy celebs straighten themselves out what's everyone going to read? and if say all the polititions loosen up, well quite frankly we are completly fucked. my point being, no one should think they have the right to dictate over others.

fucking hell i sound like a forty year old ranting. this has to be my longest blog to date, and i've only bothered to write it to put off doing any revision.

dicks.

'boys have dicks
boys should suck their own dicks
boys are dicks'
-robyn gillespie tuesday 5th january 2010

happy new years

happy new years guys. mine was happy, i managed to get pretty wasted and even rediscoverd singstar. oh yes, singstar! hopefully this will be the year i finally learn some self control and stick to my resolutions. yeah right, haha oh well worth a try. i need like my own personal motivational speaker or something!